This is Halloween - pumpkins scream in the death of night!

Did anybody celebrate Halloween? How was it? Share! :b

So mine was nothing much. On the Friday before Halloween, I dragged a bunch of mates who were like "oh halloween is not even a national holiday" to the movie theatre, and we watched the film "The Orphan". It was alright.

Then a friend came sleep over, and we spent the Halloween day together, and went downtown.

Anyways. There's this film, which is a must-see for everyone: "The Nightmare Before Christmas" from Tim burton. It's my favourite film, and great for watching particullary on Halloween and Christmas.

On Mexico there is also a celebration, Dia Dels Muertos (day of the death) on November 2nd. On that day, people remember their loved ones who passed away. They usually go to graveyards and make picnicks, like they were eating with the death, and there's a series of tradictions. They also have this thing, a piñata, which people break, and has sweets in it. (Yeah, I like sweets, can you blame me? XD)

Sweden's Lutheran Church Allows Gay Marriage!

This is so huge. November 1st will be an important day in history. It's the day where the first church will perform gay marriage for the first time. Lutherans, of course. (For those who don't know me I figh for gay right, so this is big, and I really admire Martin Luther.) I am so happy right now I think I could explode. Way to go!

The news is available at BBC.com.

More details. 70% of the church board voted for the move. If an individual preast doesn't wish to perform the ceremony, he won't be forced to, but the church will have to found a substitute.

"[We] congratulate the Church of Sweden for its decision. [The church's] homosexual and

bisexual members will finally be able to feel a little more welcome within society," said Sweden's largest gay rights group, the Swedish Federation for Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender Rights (RFSL).

Kisses and three cheers for freedom!

Poem in your pocket - take it anywhere

Today I was walking around the city and I went to this library in a place where they used to print up books a while ago. It's pretty cool, it has tons of books and a few paintings.

I bought this book, which is called "Poem In Your Pocket". It has 200 hundred poems selected by Elaine Bleackney. The idea is that you pick a poem you like, tear it out of the book and carry it around to share and feel inspired by. Isn't it lovely?

"A poem in your pocket is different. The whole way it works is different. In a way, you can't spend a poem even if you want to. As opposed to money - which seems intent upon getting out of your pocketas though it were a feral animal - a poem settles in. When I say 'pocket' hereh I mean 'mind'. A poem settles into your mind." [Introduction by Kay Ryan]

The girl who silenced the world for five minutes

The eternal hope

Last night I went to the movie theatre to watch the film Millennium (God, it's out for monts how come it just starred now in here am I living in the end of the world or something?). It's pretty cool and worth seing. I believe american's are soon making a remake - gosh, the rest of the world reads subtitles, why can't they? I mean how lazy is it, does everything have to be in english? Come on!

Anyway, there was this man, who raped and murdered women, and he was explaning how he just killed them not to get caught, though he loved watching hope vanish from their eyes when they realized he was going to kill tem. And it let me wondering...

People always expect mercy, don't they? No matter how faithless they are in mankind, they always have that little lack of fate, that maybe it will be different to them. That their loved ones won't die, at least not yet, that they won't get the epidemy, that there won't show up some freak and kill them for no reason, that god will have pity. Okay, so I don't believe this shit. Perhaps that's because I'm still young, and I'm just not too worried. But perple die, it's painfull, but it's a natural part of life. And who wants to live forever anyway?

I never understood those people who said they wished they could last forever. Who wanted Herbert West to just show up and find out the cure of death. I mean, what a fucking nightmare! My worst nightmare would definitely be live forever.

Yet somehow this is one of religion's most concearn, isn't it? God having mercy, good people having 2nd chances (I don't believe in that either, but that's not important right now) nad blah blah. So untrue. Good people die. There is not an old guy giving second chances to the good men, and punishing the bad ones. Or if there is, he's doing an awful job. The only one who actually punishes the ones who deserves to die is any Rorschach/ Dexter/ Kira kind of criminal, of course it's undeniable that any of those people would deserve death to...

Is it good, that we have this kind of hope? I believe so, anyway. I am sure of the infinit hability of people to let un down, and yet, I believe so much that I can change things, if I want to. That kind of hope is what keeps me going. It's so lame XD. Anyway, I believe that people having that kind of hope is what keeps them going...

I'm curious to know what other people think of this matter, and also, of the etternal life/ after death life.

(Curious how all this came from the film huh... I should just stop thinking once and for all...)

Back at school and the past year bullying story

Unfortunately, holidays are over. Today I went to school for the presentation. They tell us the timetable, our teachers and the new classes. I was so nervous this morning. The idea of going back to that place was just unbearable. First of all, it scared me to have to deal with so many people. So many eyes on me, judjing me, ready to start speaking bad stuff about me as soon as I turn my back. I was all shaky and my heart was popping so fast I think it could explode...
It wasen't as bad as I expected. Still, I hate to go back there. Last year I got a lot of problems. I dress kind of goth, and they bullied me like nothing I had ever seen them doing. It was the entire school. Of course I dealt with it, I had to. I'm not the kind of person who changes to be accepted. Besides, if those people treated me like that because of my clothes, I could never relate to them. Anyway, it got so bad that it got to the principal. But ohh noo, instead of talking to them, teach them accept the differences and care about the inside (it's a catholic school, they are always talking about that), no. He called me. I had done nothing, yet somehow it was my fault, I was the freak in there. He forbidden a bunch of my clothes. Of corse it didn't end the bullying. I had few teachers by my side, and they could do nothing. He called me to his office and threatened to kick me out of school. BECAUSE OF MY CLOTHES! And I had stopped wearing anything that could shock the minds of those little childen: no more combat boots, no more spiked bracelets, no more make-up, no more arm warmers and bracelets, plus a bunch of stull. I only wore black. Does it matter so much? Apparently it did.
I hate him now, I can't even look at him. That attitude of his shocked me more that any kid of my age could. Because from him, I expected either silence, or a reasonable attitude.
Well, anyway, I'll be in that hell one more year.
So today, when I was arriving at school, there was him on the way. I went around and waked in opposit direction. That's what I do now, if he doesn't see me, I don't get as many troubles.
The rest of the day was fine. I spent time with some friends of mine and chatted with the people in my class (I was amazed, when I got all the bullying/clothes/principal complications, my class never made fun on me, and they actually were by my side - I really like them. And if it weren't for my class director having asked me to stay in school one more year, I probably wouldn't have. She's really nice actually. (: ) Then I just walked home with a long-date friend.
It was nice. I just hope the rest of the year goes okay. Or at least not as bad as last year.

Back to school

So, later today (it's about 2 am right now), I'll be back at school. Well, classes will only start tomorrow, but today will be the presentation. I already know my class. And the whole school actually. Not the nicest people in the world. Or, by other words, it's hell. They hate me, and make my life miserable. I'll probably spend most time on my own, but that's just usual. I'm curious though. There will be 3 new people at my class. I wonder if they're nice people. Probably not.

Gosh, I hate so much to have to get back there... I can't even sleep...

Is there anyone else to whom the idea of getting bach to school seams unbearable? Or am I the only one afraid?

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Liar

So, I was wondering: how honest are we to the people around us?

I have seen myselfe faking so many times. Fake smiles, lying every time someone asked "how are you", making people believe I was happy.

Is that the right thing to do? You'd think it would be better to just be honest with people (well, our friends, I mean. Not any stanger...). But if you look well at it... would it really be good to put the weight of your emotions and your problems over someone else? Somehow, I find it just easier and safer to lie.

And what about how we see people? Can we really see through their desguises, distinguish when somebody is lying and when he's telling the truth? Personally, I believe we only see what people want us to see. The rest is sort of invisible.

A Clockwork Orange

A Clockwork Orange is a Book written by Anthony Burgess. It's about a guy, Alex, that goes around with his 3 mates robbing houses, beating up people and raping women. He was also a great fan of classical music, specially Beethoven's Ninth. One day he gets arrested and the government trys on him an experiment, to force him to be good, not by his own free will, but by a excutiaing pain that he feels making wrong. It's a great book, very interestingly written. The author creates a kind of lange, that the teens were supposed to talk at that time in the future, called Nadsat. Nadsat is a mix of regular english, slang and russian.

The film is great too. It was directed by Stanley Kubrick, with Malcom McDowell playing Alex (an amazing performance, I must say!).

"Our pockets were full of deng, so there was no real need from the point of view of crasting any more pretty polly to tolchock some old veck in an alley and viddy him swim in his blood while we counted the takings and divided by four, nor to do the ultra-violent on some shivering starry grey-haired ptitsa in a shop and go smecking off with the till’s guts.

But, as they say, money isn’t everything."

"The attempt to impose upon man, a creature of growth and capable of sweetness, to ooze juicily at the last round the bearded lips of God, to attemptto impose,Isay, laws and conditions appropriate to a mechanical creation, against this I raise my sword- pen."